Brain Splatter

"You buy a house to keep your stuff in--
Then you have so much stuff you need a bigger house. You work your tail off to buy a bigger house and then buy more stuff to fill it--" poorly paraphased from the Great George Carlin

"The possesions you own end up owning you..."--Not sure who but it aplies.

I try not to want. I need food, water, a place to live, and it's getting so I need a car if the bus schedules get any tighter and cabs get any more expensive. But I do try not to want. I don't want more things to clutter up my small apartment and my life. I don't want bills to pay for things. I don't want to bust my ass for my minimal salary only to blow it on toys. I try not to want but I do.

I want a new phone. Mine works but it is old. I want one of those cool new phones with all the gizmos and gadgets and beeps and I want it to play "Wild Thing" when it rings. I want a computer, a laptop, so I can download music and video and be all in the information fastlane. I want an ipod to keep the music on. I want a booming system and I guess a huge TV that would take up the side of my apartment. I guess I would need a bigger place, a house to keep my giant TV. I want a washer and dryer so I don't have to go to the laundry room. I want this. I want that. I need very little.

I try not to want. It is hard. I am human and once our needs are set we live by wants. I want a girl. I want many girls. Maybe I need one to love? That gets into a gray area and I know I am not ready to go there. Besides, people are not possesions. If you think they are you deserve to lose them.

I want not to want. I think I need to try harder. But I still want a new phone. Laterzzz..