Wednesday, April 29, 2009
What to do?
I need to find something to do. I am bored. With life, with the world, with this, with that. I am bored with just the thought of being bored. I am bored with the idea that I am not supposed to be bored.
I hate the fact that I am supposed to do something. I hate that I have to find a purpose to life and then do that. I hate not knowing what I want to do and hate having to know.
They say that birds of a feather flock together. Who the fuck says that I want to go flock with anyone? I am tired of working in a cube with no windows. I am tired of seeing people that I have no urge to see everyday. I am tired of talking to people who I would rather ignore just because they have a stupid job title.
I don't know what I want but I know what I don't want. I don't want to concern myself about brands and networking and marketing. I am tired of hearing buzzwords pushed like they are the mantra of a new religion. I have trouble respecting people who aren't even selling a product but the idea of a product. At least a car salesman sells you the car. What the hell does a marketing consultant sell you? A branding specialist? These are the people who study how people feel about a purchase and they write reports. Almost as bad as lawyers. And you know how I feel about most of them.
I guess if you are comfortable doing that I have no problem with it but I don't know that it is for me. The easy part is know what I don't want to do. The hard part is coming up with something that I would like to do. Something that I can commit to. Something that I have a passion for. Can you make yourself find a passion? What if you don't find that. What if there is nothing that drives you. What do you do then?
The only thing I come up with is forest ranger. Laterzzz...
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Pushing it.
Maybe that is why I haven't written anything. I have absolutely nothing interesting going on right now. Zero. Zilch. Nada. So I could write about what is going on in the world but let's be honest here. The world is totally fucked right now. Maybe I shouldn't use such language but it is true. And this is my fucking rant so I think I am gonna let the F-bombs go. I read and watch the news and it just makes me shake my head. Swine flu? Really? It isn't that I don't believe that there is a disease out there that is going to kill a bunch of people, it is that I don't understand the over reaction. Flu kills thousands every year. If it was something big. A pandemic, epidemic, plague or what have you, is there really anything to do about it? Seems to me you just have to prepare for the worst and hope for the best. If there was something that was killing people let and right what would the governments of the world do? Honestly the only choice would be to try to identify and quarantine the infected if not just outright elimination. It is a brutal idea but if you can save 100 million lives by killing 1 million people is it worth it? See, I told you nothing was good in the world. Then of course the economy which is either about to get better or as I have said before a whole lot worse. I am leaning toward the worse part or the argument but then again that is just me. Another interesting idea. If a plague ravishes the planet and kills a large majority of the elderly and others with compromised immune systems what does that do for the economic crisis? Think about it. If the United States lost a large percentage of seniors and others with shaky immune systems that would free up approximately a third of the yearly budget spent in social programs. Social Security, Medicare, would suddenly not be as utilized. Hospitals would empty out. The health care system in general would become a lot less utilized. That's just a fact that younger people don't use the doctor as often. Suddenly with the extra money the budget issues are not that big a burden and the national debt is easier to pay off. All consumer products suddenly have less demand so down goes prices for food, housing, energy. Does the recession end once the bodies are taken care of? I don't know but if 20% of the population just goes away it would change a lot of fiscal models. So what does this all mean? I am not hoping for any of this stuff to happen. When I am here typing it is easy to imagine what could happen. There is a big line between that and the bodies rotting in the summer heat because there aren't enough cold places to put them all. I caught a bit of one of those anti-government conspiracy channels and they were saying this could be part of the new world order plans. Big business provides the flu shots, provides the anti-virals, provides the body bags and all the other toys that would be needed to fight a pandemic. And at the same time the government, shadow or otherwise, gets to control us under the guise of protecting us. Again, I don't know if it is true or not but it is a hell of a lot easier to write about something like that then it would be to plot it out and execute it. Not to mention living though a plague would be hell on Earth. I for one don't want to watch people I care about die from flu. I especially would not want to be the one lying in a pool of my own discharge, drowning in mucas. Not a fun way to go. One thing that gets on my nerves is the coverage of all this. It is annoying because sometimes I get the feeling that news would love to be able to show piles of bodies being burned by soldiers in Tyvek suits. Of course, they wouldn't want that. They are just on the lookout for the public good and not to earn a buck. I mean information is a good thing but fear keeps the people tuning in. Laterzzz...
Good afternoon. I am forcing myself to write. I have had the inclination lately but not the inspiration. I don't know why that should stop me. I just haven't felt like trying to bring the thoughts in my head out. Nothing seems to really inspire me to write now, right now. I have got to get back in the swing of it. I have said that before. I never said I wouldn't repeat myself. I figure if I just start it will flow. So here we go...
Labels: death, news, Swine Flu
